Recently I posted about my frustrations regarding my health lately. One of my readers asked a question that started me thinking. I have made improvements on GAPS, though it's easy to forget them. There was a time that going grocery shopping or getting a chicken in the slow cooker wore me out. Generally that's not the case anymore. There was also a time in which I was regularly in the 7-10 scale of anxiety on a scale of 1-10 (see an explanation of the SUDS scale here). That's not the case anymore.
So there was a time that I would have been happy with my current progress. I try not to lose sight of that. My frustration now is that I'm better but not better enough to do the things I want to. But I should not forget that I am not living in a state of perpetual anxiety and fear. That is a huge blessing. I'm not willing to give up though and stay where I am. I think I can get even better.
Before I did GAPS, I had already made some changes. I took St. John's Wort, and felt like that decreased my anxiety. I'm not sure when I stopped taking that. I had also added more protein and fat to my diet. Another thing I did and still do, is talk things over with my husband and realize some of the thought processes I have developed or picked up over the years. And yes, I do tend to avoid things that I know will cause me anxiety.
I still deal with anxiety and OCD on a daily basis. A lot of my decisions are based upon fears. Sometimes I successfully set them aside, and sometimes I don't. Sometimes it's easier to just go with the fear and do or not do something. I also deal with depression quite a bit. That makes it hard for me to get and stay motivated and to accomplish anything. So then I feel like I am wasting my life, wasting my potential. I am not willing to keep waiting without changing anything in hopes that I will just get better. I am being proactive, because I don't want to stay where I'm at.